It is tough to not love the guy who ‘found’ you and is there for you at your weakest point. I’m trying to push my these unwanted feelings away, and I’m constantly battling it every time. I just need to lash this out somewhere because no one knows the truth. I will overcome this someday, I know I will. 

fly, flightless bird: Dear you →

Dear you,
I’ve never really understood you, or the things you say, or why you do what you do. You never told me your secrets, or what weighs on your heart. But you’ve held me close, late at night, when I think of all the things that try to break me, and you kept me together. You made me feel safe, and you loved me. You listened to my whispers of life, dreams and hope, and of sadness and hurt. You made me laugh when I could hardly smile, and you kissed me gently, softly, but only when you knew I wanted it too; you didn’t push. I still remember all those nights, the only time we could be alone, and the way your fingers trailed across my skin, sending shivers through my body. You made me feel the way no one else could. We would be tired, but the time was precious, and so we forced our sleepy eyes to stay open. You would constantly keep reassuring me about myself, because you knew I was insecure. You were patient, and understanding. You made me feel important, and beautiful. 
And now we’ve parted, and I miss you. I will miss you, and I’ll think about you often. Though we did things that we regret, I will never regret knowing you, or loving you. Maybe we’ll never see each other again, but we’ll always remember, and we’ll learn from what we did. We’ll learn to love, and grow, and care, more than we’ve ever before. And I know that we’ll be okay.